Friday, December 30, 2011

Happy New Year: A Mom's Resolution


Happy (almost) New Year to you and yours.

How has your 2011 been?

For me, it has been an eventful, active, crazy and stressful year.

We have been settling into our new city, trying to buy a home (a painful process that has lasted seven months so far), spending time with friends, old and new, and being with family much more now since we are closer in proximity. It was especially nice this year too to become more involved with extended family, and being so welcomed by them to join for holiday gatherings and other festivities.

I also turned the big 4-0 this year. Ugh. That was a tough adjustment for me. I am still not so sure I believe that I am forty.

The most unfortunate and painful part of this past year for me is that I put on a whopping 30 pounds of unnecessary weight.  My mother is likely cringing when she reads this.

Its nuts. I know. I weigh more now than I did when I delivered Sarah. It's hard to believe, but the pounds just piled on while I was trying to get adjusted to a new way of doing things living in the suburbs especially since we have to drive mostly everywhere, versus walking, to get to where we want and need to go. It was also challenging to carve out time to workout at home as Sarah always got under my feet when I popped in a fitness DVD. I also joined a gym that was difficult for me to get to since we have been a "one-car family" living in the suburbs.  The latter is going to change in 2012 once we buy and settle into a new home.  We fully intend to get another car.

There are really no good excuses for my weight to get this out of control. However, moving to a new home, starting a new school for Sarah, not seeing my NY/NJ friends as much as I used to when we lived near New York City, trying to make new friends all around, and acclimating to a new job that I have now been in for over a year learning a great deal and flexing some new muscles (loving social media), has been a full plate indeed.

Now that we are settled and striving in our new jobs, enjoying new relationships with friends for Daniel, Sarah and I, and adjusting well to our new neighborhood, surroundings and local activities, it's time to take matters into my own hands and float only a few plates in the air at a time, if possible, versus the many that were in the air in 2011.

Thankfully, Daniel is doing great and Sarah is thriving and growing at an exponential pace.  Both of them are the light in my life and this year I feel even stronger and more connected to them.

So, as much as I have tried to take the weight off this year and make a dent, I have not.  I have decided to make a resolution, something I don't often do, and hope to G-d that I can stick to it.  I don't like how I feel in this body. And, my former clothes certainly miss being worn.  I have also been more self-deprecating about my body including in front of Sarah, and realize that this behavior has to stop. I don't want Sarah to become self-conscious in any way or become insecure about her looks or body type.

While this year will center much around my daughter and husband, as they are an integral part of my life, I look forward to finding more much-needed time for me especially for working out and eating better. This is not just for me. This is for Sarah and for Daniel.  As I get older my health is that much more important. Getting back on track is one of many goals for me for 2012, but a significant one I aim to achieve and maintain.

Wish me luck. I know what I need to do as I have done the weight loss successfully in the past.  It's that I need to stick to it, and stick to it hard. For example, before getting pregnant with Sarah, I wanted to start at a certain, healthy weight. By achieving that goal I felt in control during my pregnancy and gained only the required weight. After putting on weight while breastfeeding, as I felt ravenous all the time, I managed to get on track and lose nearly 20 pounds. I know I can do this. I just need to do IT.

What are your goals for 2012?  What do you aim to achieve this year?

Let's toast to a new year of life, love, happiness, and good health.

Happy New Year!!!

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